LONELY THIS CHRISTMAS

LONELY THIS CHRISTMAS

by Sylvia
(England)

KIZZY

KIZZY

KIZZY

This is going to be a very sad Christmas not just for me, but for everyone who has shared my grief this year. In June, my darling boy Kizzy passed away at the age of 16 years. A more beautiful chocolate Persian, had never walked the earth, and boy did he know it.

Kizzy became my baby at the age of 6 weeks, when I happened to be in the right place at the right time, when his "farmer" owner had taken him to the vets to be put to sleep, as he had been so inbred, that he had an overshot jaw.

The thought of this was too much for me, and so the little fella became mine. Within days, Kizzy (meaning beautiful and perfect) had ever so cleverly defined the rules for the next 16 years. He would drink mineral water, have fresh chicken and beef, cheese, cheese and onion crisps and for his first Christmas, Brussel sprouts, cooked and then saute with bacon, a little butter and gravy.

His desert on Christmas day would be some clotted cream, after which he would lie quite contentedly until either he needed to move to ease his rounded tummy or it was time for bed. The years passed so quickly, he was diagnosed with a heart murmur in 2000, and I was told that it could take him quite easily and at any time, so each day was precious. But somehow he survived it, and travelled from one end of the country to the other in 2000 miaowing all the way until we reached our new home.

He lost his voice for 2 days, but he had defied the sedation he and the others had been given. Kizzy settled into his life doing what cats do best, very little. But every now and then he would reinforce his position as top cat, by showing one of the others how to open a packet of foil to remove ham, or take a piece of cheese from a plate.

He also used to love drinking milk out of a glass to really embarrass me. In 2008 he had a nasty middle ear infection which did lay him low for a week or so, but recovered quite well and continued to enjoy his life. If ever I had to go away, after a couple of days I would ring him on the speakerphone just so he knew Mum was not far away.

In October 2009, Kizzy began to lose weight and seemed to be drinking a lot and always being hungry, sometimes I felt he could not see as well as he used to either. I called the vet who was pretty sure it was Diabetes, and although he could have had injections, I felt on reflection, that to feed him every 2 hours would be better for him.

Again he paddled on quite cheerfully, some days better than ever, and like a wee kitten and others, he was really showing his age. In April this year he began having little episodes, where he seemed to be "away" from me, but giving him on a friends advice some glucose or cream on his lips lifted his blood sugar, and he rallied once again. I knew it was coming to the time when we would be saying goodbye, but even though I knew, I could not have accepted it. On May 4th in the early hours he had a particularly bad turn, and from then the turns became more and more and his recovery from then was taking longer.

I contacted the vet who said he was in no pain, and if I wanted he would end his life. I promised Kizzy a long time ago, just like I have all the others, that the only time I would consider euthansia would be if they had cancer, were in constant pain or if their quality of life was so impaired it would be cruel to prolong it.

On Tuesday 22nd June 2010 Kizzy slipped away, whilst in my arms, the greatest compliment he could ever have given me. My little precious boy had gone. The grief is still raw, and will never leave me, and someday just like now, I cry as if I am never going to live again, but I owe it to him and his brothers and sisters to carry on, to remember him and honour his life, all I have left are the memories and oh such precious photos of him. I miss you my darling, but I know you miss me too.

God Bless Love Mum - for those of you who have shared this pain and lost dearly much loved little ones of your own, I send you my love. We will never forget them all.

Sylvia

From LONELY THIS CHRISTMAS to Forum

Comments for
LONELY THIS CHRISTMAS

Click here to add your own comments

Dec 28, 2010 Thank you, Barbara
by: Rhonda

I appreciate your comments about the loss of my sweet Baby Blue. She was a tremendous joy in my life, and I am so thankful that I had her with me, but wanted so much to be able make it to retirement, so that we could spend more time together. Thank you for your sympathy, it helps to know that others share my grief.
Rhonda


Dec 28, 2010 To Kathy
by: Ruth

I can only echo what Barbara said, every moment with your cat is precious.
If one of our boyz wants me I drop everything as their happiness is more important than anything. I can always catch up on other stuff later.
X for Lia's furry head

Kattaddorra signature Ruth


Dec 28, 2010 To Rhonda
by: Barbara

I'm so sorry to read of your loss, I think everyone who visits POC will empathise with how you are feeling, it's truly awful when we lose our cats. RIP Baby Blue.

Barbara avatar


Dec 28, 2010 To Kathy W
by: Barbara

Of course you must spend as much time as you can with Lia, everyone on POC understands that each moment now is precious. Just pop in sometimes and let us know how he is, and how you are too.

Barbara avatar


Dec 28, 2010 so sorry
by: Kathy W

Im sorry for your loss. My Lia is too getting up in age. I know he wont be with me forever and that is why Im not on here as often as I used to be. I want to spend every moment I can with him. I dont care if hes sleeping because if he is its always by me. I know he loves me as much as I love him because he shows it. He has stayed by my side through many illnesses. He warned us of an earth quake ( even though we didnt know what he was saying) Hes always there to greet me. Sometimes hes so playful but hes 15 years old now. So sorry to all my friends on here but until I get my own computer, I wont be on here as much because Im spending time with Lia. I work so that also cuts my time with him short. I know I dont have much time left with him but I only got him back 2 years ago so I have to make him feel loved as much as possible.


Dec 26, 2010 Sorrow for your loss
by: Rhonda


Sylvia
Although we are oceans apart logistically, our feelings are very close, since my sweet Baby Blue passed away on December 6, 2010. I have posted a blog on this same website and have a picture of my baby also. Kizzy is a beautiful cat--and I know he loved you, as I know that my baby loved me. I am still unable to be joyous this Christmas, since Baby Blue and I were inseparable, as I am sure you and your sweet Kizzy were. I too, have 11 other cats to keep me company, but Baby was a very special friend and companion, and I know I will miss her forever. I was with my girl when she drew her last breath, so for that I am grateful, and that she did not seem to be in any pain. I know she felt my presence, and that she knew I did not want her to die in some cold, noisy veterinarian's office. I am very sorry that you lost your Kizzy during this time of year, but I know that Baby Blue is in a special place waiting for me to join her, as Kizzy waits for you.
Rest In Peace, Sweet Kizzy
Rhonda


Dec 17, 2010 RIP to a wonderful cat
by: Barbara

Kizzy was a beautiful, kind and gentle cat who was loved, and loved in return, very much. His passing has left a huge persian shaped hole in Sylvia's home and in all of our hearts. Sleep well little chap, we're thinking about you today and every day, it was a real pleasure to know you.

Barbara avatar


Dec 17, 2010 We miss Kizzy
by: Ruth

Kizzy had a wonderful life in a loving home and he died where he was happiest, in his adored mother's arms.
There is still a huge gap even though there are 15 other cats.
Kizzy used to sometimes give me a treat by sitting on my lap and purring, but only until Sylvia sat down, he was a real mammy's boy !

R.I.P Kizzy,we all miss you very much.

Kattaddorra signature Ruth


Dec 16, 2010 Emotional
by: Michael

Well, I found this a very emotional read particularly at the end.

Thanks for sharing a beautiful story of love and affection for a sweet little cat companion. What a great relationship you had.

Michael Avatar



Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Please only upload photos that are small in size of max 500px width and 50 KB size. Large images typical of most default settings on digital cameras may fail to upload. Thanks.