I have 13 cats. I recently lost one, one of my favorites and I buried him in the yard.
There are no dead animals in my home. Although I don’t walk in feces it is still very hard to keep a clean home the way I would love to have one.
And I know I would be a lot better without all those cats but the big problem is the following: I love each and everyone of them deeply and have a hard time to imagine giving them away for I don’t know if I would trust anyone with them.
They all have their own name, their own personality…
It just started with a couple of cats but I didn’t do what I should have done to prevent babies so I have to pay the price for my stupidity now.
And it is a high price: always being afraid someone landlord is going to discover all the cats; being so unhappy in my home because it is messy, smelly and I can’t invite anyone one here.
So it makes me even more lonely that I already am. It is a vicious circle.
One only thing I know for sure: most animal hoarders like me are not bad people. They do not intend to hurt the animals. They all start with a lot of compassion and love and it ends up hurting both the animals and themselves.
As for me I know the solution to my problems, well most of them, would be to give away some of my BABIES but just the thought of it is killing me.
I can’t even travel to see my family being 13 years since the last time I saw my mom because I am afraid to leave my cats.
I know too well for most people it is unthinkable but for me it is a sad reality, a lonely life and I can’t seem to find a solution.
Not that I don’t know what I should do but I just can’t do it…
Update: I have brought this post forward in time so that it is read afresh (Admin).
Hi M.S…. thank you very much for sharing. My heart goes out to you. I feel sorry for you. You seem to be a really nice loving person and you probably need a bit of help, so I changed the title a bit. There are some really nice visitors to this site who may be able to make some suggestions.
There is no doubt, as you say, that you need to get back to a two or one cat household.
If you could be sure that the people adopting the cats were reliable and kind you might be able to let them go.
Perhaps if you advertised just one for adoption and see how that went. It might break the habit, get things moving in the right direction.
What you say, indicates that my theory about cat hoarders, written some time ago, is correct: Cat Hoarding.
I would urge you to make a change. Do it small steps at a time. A small or very small step can be achieved and gradually you might break out of it.
Take a deep breath, count to ten and then choose one cat, make sure he or she is clean and in good health and offer him or her for adoption. Ask the adopters questions and ask if you can come around and see your cat. Then if that works, progress from there.
I can’t think of anything else.
All the best to you and your loved cats.